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I’m trying. Day 1.

I’m trying. I am. Today, I’m trying.  I am going to do it. Why? Because I am glorious. Glorious – possessing or deserving of glory.  That’s me.  Today I start. Truly. I start.

What is distracting me?  Myself. I am my biggest distraction. I can’t blame social media. I can’t blame TV. I blame me. Me. I doubt. I falter. But, that changes today. I have no idea why today. But who cares. It changes.

I have mighty plans. Mighty plans, indeed. I’m not listing them all here, but I am a’changin’.

And, you guessed it. This is one of those plans that I have.  I have had this blog for who-knows-how-long.  I think about this blog frequently. But, thinking doesn’t make me glorious, now, does it?

This is making me glorious. Therefore, I am pleased to welcome all of my new readers. I know you are in similar situations. We are busy. We are all busy. But, we can’t let ourselves distract ourselves.  I struggle with this. But, I am pleased to announce that I no longer am allowing myself to be a distraction. I am focused. I am meditating and  asking myself to give myself some grace. I need the focus. I do not need to distract myself.

I have mantras to help guide me. I am glorious. I am changing. I am enlightened. I am vibrating at a high frequency.

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Venting

So, I haven’t posted in FOREVER. Which is fine. I mainly use to keep track of my books. Lame. Truthful, though.

Anyway, I’ve never been one to have friends – like BFFs or “my girls” – just don’t. Never really have. Recently, like the past few years, I allowed myself to kind of befriend a group of women that I was involved with in a homeschool group we joined. I NEVER intended to become friends – because, come on, I don’t fit the profile.  But it happened. I kind of got close to some of these women. Not like visit on the phone and go shopping – because I don’t really do that. But, we talked. Chatted. Visited. It was good. It was highly unusual for me. I even found myself kind of thinking I had “found my tribe”.  It felt really good. I started to think I actually had friends.  It made me smile inside.

But, things changed. Long story. I am no longer a part of the group.  And, well, no one seems to care.  So, what does that do for me?  It makes me sad. It makes me know that it wasn’t real. It was all in my head. I allowed myself  to be sucked up in the glamour of it all.  I’m mostly mad at myself that I fell for it. I won’t do that again. I’m old enough to know better. But, it seriously had been YEARS since I had a friendship with someone, so I was blinded by it.

The story why we left is long and drawn-out. The reasons we left are numerous. They are reasons where people take sides. Apparently, not my side.  I also, figured people would believe me/us. But, that’s not the case.  Reality sucks.  It’s a tough lesson to learn. I mean, I’m old. Why can’t I get this through my head, yet?  It leads me back to “family first”. That has worked for me in the past, and I need to remember that.  This is how it will be for me. I know it doesn’t work for everyone, but obviously, this needs to be my mantra.

summer bummer

So in my quest to have an amazing summer – the wee one has been sick. Ugh. So, my time has been taken up with taking care of her.  She is on the mend. But, it’s kind of touch and go at times. Her fever peaked at 102.4. She is definitely better, but this afternoon she was not feeling good at all.  All she wanted to do was snuggle. Nothing wrong with that.  

 

She and i did create a summer calendar for her.  She gets to choose what she wants to do each day.  She picks from a list.  Today she picked crafting. So, after dinner she sat on her bed while watching telly and got busy crafting. She tends to be someone who loves to start projects, but really doesn’t care about finishing those projects. Obviously process-based.  I opened a little etsy shop for her.  She knows how to load her project photos and everything.  Hopefully she’ll get some more of her goodies in there. I would love for her to make a sale. Right now, Daddy has purchased something, and my mom has purchased something. 

 

Hopefully she’ll be better tomorrow. Hopefully she’ll add some projects to her shop. Hopefully she’ll make a sale.

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Here we go

Ok, no fancy fanfare. Just a post.

 

First day of summer fun with the wee one! But, she had a fever.  So we were at Urgent Care. But, when we got home we got to business. First we made Vinegar Cucumbers for tonight’s dinner.  I loved them! Hubby couldn’t stand them. He said they were too “vinegary”. Not for my taste. So, I guess I won’t be making that again

 

Then we made Kiss-Pies. And, once again. She didn’t like them. Hubby didn’t like them. I love them! I tell ya’, I have no taste buds.  20140602_140046

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Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day!  I love this holiday. I have had a “valentine” every year since my freshman year of high school. So, that’s why I love it. I have never been without. It’s always been a special and fun holiday.

 

However, I do know that those people who have had awful holiday experiences don’t like Valentine’s.  When everyone is bummed about it, I know they haven’t experienced as much fun as I have.

 

Every year we go away. Mark and I have been doing this for years. Then, when the wee one came along, we just took her with us. We go out-of-town for one night only. Hotel, dinner, movies, whatever. Of course, it was a different experience before the wee one arrived. But, that’s ok – we’ve adapted.  It’s all good.  Whenever we’re together it’s always good!

 

Happy Valentine's day!

Happy Valentine’s day! (Photo credit: DonnaGrayson)