the annie blog

Posted on October 18, 2003 by annieblog

Odd day

It’s been a rather strange day for me. We slept till very late – noon. Then we got ready and went to one of our fav Chinese places for lunch. Then we headed to Wally World for some shopping and a few groceries. On the way back home we stopped at TCBY for some ice cream. Then when we got home I went to sleep for three hours!!! I just got up a little while ago and had a piece of cold fried chicken and piece of cheddar cheese. Now I’m sucking down a Diet Coke.

So why is this odd?The sleeping – then the fact that I was supposed to be tailgating with a bunch of my friends tonight. But I called and backed out. I guess I backed out because I was feeling a little self-conscious. It’s hard to explain, I’ve struggled with this my whole life. The odd thing is I can go do stand up comedy and perform improv (which I do on a regular basis) but when I get in social situations where I have to be ME and only ME – I totally freak out. I’m not sure why, it’s just always been that way. I have a terrible time at parties and stuff, I usually end up leaving early IF I even go. Mark is a very social person, so this is hard for him to understand, but he’s actually gotten very good with it. He seems to understand a little better. At least I think he does.

Oh well, I need to do something productive – like laundry or grade papers. I usually prefer just staying at home rather than being a social butterfly.