I put a lot of pressure on myself to do certain things at certain times. But, I really get enjoyment out of it. In fact – I’m gonna act like a little motivational speaker here- but I think I’ve found MY way to MY happiness.
About a year ago I was kind of in a funk. Nothing bad, just a tad lost. Realize, it was only personal, I just wasn’t having as much enjoyment out of life as I wanted. I also decided that “thinking” about it too much was not the right thing to do. Well, I was wrong. Fast forward about 6 months, and I started to really think about WHY I was feeling this way. I couldn’t figure it out. Everything seemed pretty perfect in my world. So, I started to reflect on my past – specifically those times when I really felt “complete” (ok, that’s a stupid word, but it’s what came to mind right now – I may eventually edit it). And, what I realized is that I carved out time for ME. And, again – I’m having a word issue because TIME isn’t necessarily what it’s about. It’s more about THINGS.
For example:
- Blogging (reading) – reading blogs inspires the hell out of me. I’m such an introvert that I pretty much don’t talk to anyone other than my mom, hubby and daughter. So, it’s good to follow people and see what they’re doing. Plus, I kind of feel invincible when I read blogs. I feel like I can do whatever they’re doing. I feel empowered.
- Blogging (writing) – I have a few blogs. Seriously. They are for my eyes only. It’s a chance for me to write (which is something I love). I have one blog specifically for family members. When we were in the process of adopting I found it easier to blog every night rather than call and email the masses to keep them informed of our progress. And, five years later, I’m still doing it. Every day. I also started a Picture-A-Day blog on January 1st of this year. I have my phone alarm set for 5pm. I snap a picture right then and upload to Flickr, and then load it to the blog.
I have a pretty dead tea blog (I’m kind of a tea snob), so I kept track of what I had on my shelf, and what teas I adored. Now, I use Steepster. I have a dead craft blog. I needed a place to showcase my creations. Since then I use Ravelry. I have a dead reading blog. Now, I have my reading list on this blog. But, I have kept track of every book I’ve read since 2004. I have a dead personal blog. That what started in 2004 as well. I updated at least daily. I made tons of friends through it. I blogged faithfully for about 5 years then I stopped for some reason. This blog is an attempt to re-create that experience. I also have 2 blogs I started for NaNoWriMo. They are both a work in progress. Then, I have a couple of work blogs – you know, just a place where students can go to read information I post. But, I think we can all see that I like blogging.
- Crafts – I knit. I have a tattoo of a yarn ball with knitting needles. On my wrist. I love to craft. All the time. It is good for me.
- Kitchen– I love to be in the kitchen. I like to cook and bake. I try and do a t least one new recipe a week. Depending on how crazy it is in my house. Sometimes I can crank out two or three a week. That makes me happy.
These things make me happy. Very happy. So, I have a concerted effort to make time for this stuff. And, it doesn’t mean that I take time away from my family. I craft with Atlantis all the time. She is as crafty as I am. I love that about her. I cook with her. I bake with her. She loves helping me. Plus, we all get to sit down and enjoy the goodness together.
So, I decided to make these things a priority. I started in January. And guess what? I found what I was missing. In fact, I’ve added things to my list. I’ll blab about things later. But, these changes have completely changed my little world. I’m at that happy place again. It really didn’t take much. I just needed to think back to my happy times and figure out what I was doing then. And, I did. I found it!
Here is Atlantis holding up the shawlette I made for Mother’s Day for my mom. It’s blocked and packed and ready to go. This also makes me happy. Yarn and my baby girl!!! I am the luckiest person in the whole wide world!!
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